Monday, January 26, 2009

An Unfinished Post

About a year and a half ago when I first got on facebook, I thought "Hey, wouldn't it be neat if some of my friends from high school were on here? It sure would be neat to see what they are up to." So I did a search...and found nothing. "Oh well." I thought. "They probably all have lives full of husbands and wives and children and Saturday soccer games. They aren't going to waste their time on something like facebook. Not to mention, this is Red Oak we're talking about." And then I went on my merry way in ignorant bliss...

Then this summer I had a friend request from someone I went to high school with and was so excited when I found several others in our school/church/friend group as well. So I friend requested all of them and have been keeping tabs on them (a.k.a. stalking) ever since. Once again I thought it would be neat to see if anyone else from Red Oak High '94 was on facebook...and once again found nothing.

Then tonight I was doing my weekly random stalking and came across someone that I knew from high school but more than likely doesn't remember me. I didn't friend request her...why should I? We never were friends, just acquaintances. But going through her friend list I found so many other people from high school...people that I know of but never really knew and I'm sure who won't remember me. There was practically my entire high school class on facebook and I didn't even know. I looked at tons of people and only friend requested about 4 that I thought might actually remember me. And as I was looking at these people and thinking, "Wow. I never knew that about her/him!" I realized that not much has changed since high school. I'm on the outside looking in completely fascinated with their lives and doing more observing than interacting.

And then I realized that a lot of things HAVE changed in the past 15 years. I grew up for one thing...and so did they. Just looking at thier pictures I realized that they looked like grown-ups...not like the teenagers I remember them as. For another thing, I learned how to talk to people and interact with them. That may sound stupid, but I was extremely shy and very unsure of myself as a teenager. I don't think I ever held a conversation with anyone that lasted more than 5 minutes. Now sometimes you can't get me to shut-up (hence the blog).

Anyways, I don't really know the point I'm trying to make and I don't know that any of this means anything to any of you but since I've typed all of this I guess I'll go ahead and post it. Maybe later I'll think of an actual point to make and I'll amend this post. For now though, it's late and I'm going to bed.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

This Is Why I Don't Love My Job

Testing....need I say more?

Yes. I do.

I hate it. It sucks. It's boring. And it makes me sleepy. I listened to almost 40 different kids today read the same three stories over...and over...and over...and over again. No amount of M&Ms could keep me alert. My mind was listening and my hand was marking their mistakes, but my eyes would not stay open. It was horrible and just plain cruel. I know those kids probably think I'm possessed or something with my eyes rolling back and my mumbling words.

*sigh* Not that anybody cares or anyone can do anything about it but I just had to gripe....

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Happy! Happy! Joy! Joy!

Welcome everyone to my favorite show...yep, you guessed it...Lost! In case you don't know, it's my absolute most favorite show of all time. I know some of you don't like it. I know some of you don't care. I know some of you used to watch it but have now given up on it. But I love it and therefore must blog about it. So in preparation for Season 5 which starts next Wednesday (hooray!), I thought I would share with you my two favorite clips from the Season 4 Finale. Oddly they both include creepy evil Ben whom I originally did not like. I have since acquired a strange sort of affection for his evilness. I mean, he's a really good bad guy.

Clip A:
This is where Ben kills Keamy, the guy that was sent to capture him. The really good bad part is at the very end after Locke tells Ben he's just killed everyone on the frieghter by killing Keamy and Ben says, "So." Love it!

Clip B:
This is the very end of Season 4. My favorite part here is about 1:30 into the clip as Jack is standing over the coffin and you hear Ben say, "Hello Jack." and Jack almost jumps out of his skin.

Anyways, I won't bore all of you non-fans with my ramblings about a show none of you (except Alison) watch. Maybe someday I will, but not today. Let's just say I love Lost more than...hmmm...naps.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

It's All About Me

So today I have been feeling very self-centered since the moment I woke up...and went back to sleep...and woke up again, and I just thought I would take a moment so that you all could feel sorry for me because I don't have all the things in life that I want. So let's just start by ignoring the whole "Count your blessings"/"Be grateful for what you have" mentality. That doesn't apply today. Today it is all about me and what I want.

I want...

...a new wardrobe. I discovered this morning that I haven't bought a new pair of pants (like work pants) in over a year. I hate all of my clothes and shoes. They are all ugly and I want new ones.

...for everyone to leave me alone at work. Is that really too much to ask? I just want to sit in my office and play on my computer all day long. And maybe just sit here and read and not worry about other things I need to do. not even have to come to work. I want to just sit at home and lay on the couch and watch TV...specifically psych. I have recently become an addict and I can't get enough. fake being sick and go home and take a nap without feeling guilty. I have only taken one sick day so far this school year and I have 4 more to use before the end of the year. I just feel too guilty. I shouldn't but I do. be a fun sweet old grandma someday. There's this lady that is sitting and mentoring a couple of students and I just keep watching her and thinking, "I'm too tired to be that spunky right now...what am I going to be like as an old lady? Yikes!" have Corner Bakery everyday for lunch. I just love it so much and I want it all the time. I'm really hungry for lunch but I do not, DO NOT, want cafeteria food. I'll feel guilty if I leave and go get something too.

And lastly, I want a goose that lays golden eggs for Easter!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009


...I got back in Mrs. N's good graces. She hasn't talked to me pretty much since September. I don't know why she stopped talking to me in the first place. She's the kind of person who will get offended and then not tell you and pout and not talk to you anymore. Very passive agressive. But then she brought me something today and I asked her how her Christmas was and I got an earful of gossip about her family. Super.

...I've become part of the in-crowd with my principal. Not sure how I feel about this. I don't really like the idea of an in crowd in the first place and therefore want nothing to do with it. Actually I'm a little nervous. See, my principal plays favorites. He's a great principal, he just has his favorites. And those favorites get to do everything. They go to Washington D.C. to speak at conferences, they get special awards that he makes up himself, they are put on special teams that present things to the district, he jokes around with them, etc. So today one of his favorites tells me that he wants me to come to a special meeting about the revered TAKS test coming up in March. I've never been invited to do anything with TAKS except sub for another teacher (one of his favorites) while she did TAKS stuff. It's very exclusive.

...I think I missed the special TAKS meeting. I thought Ms. Favorite said it was tomorrow after school but then today I saw all the other favorites walking down the hall talking and laughing. I think I just got kicked right out of the Favorites Club without even knowing it. It must be because I'm not keeping any of my New Year's Resolutions.

Monday, January 5, 2009

New Year's Resolutions

So I've been thinking these past few days about what my New Year's Resolutions are going to be. I usually don't make them because I figure if I decide to do something and I'm really serious about doing it, I'm not going to procrastinate by waiting for the new year, I'm going to do it right away. I mean, who really keeps their New Year's Resolutions anyway? Personally I think it was all thought up by personal trainers and gyms to get people to think they are fat and need to work out and join a gym knowing full well that they will stop coming by mid-February but they still have to pay through April. But I without further adeu, here are my 2009 goals!

1. Whenever I see someone I haven't seen in a while, I will not ask them how they are doing. Instead, I will pelt them with awkward and uncomfortable questions such as: "Have you been on any hot dates lately?" "How long has it been since your last date?" and then when they tell me that it has been a while, I'll ask them why and keep asking until they give me an answer that makes them feel stupid and makes me feel good.

2. I will schedule meetings at school and require everyone to be there. Then the day of the meeting I will cancel it and reschedule it for the next day and tell everyone if they have something else going on that day, they need to cancel it because it is mandatory that they be there. And then if I'm still not ready, I'll cancel the meeting that I rescheduled 1 hour before it begins.

3. I will watch Twilight over and over and over again until I love it.

4. I will go to random blogs and leave cryptic anonymous comments to various posts that will leave the author obsessing over who it was.

5. I will be nice to my alarm clock and wake up smiling and happy to be awake and to get ready for my day. In fact, I plan to train myself to not even need an alarm clock. The birds chirping and the sunshine is my alarm clock from now on.

6. For this year, my mantra will be "Things will be fine in '09!" and I promise to repeat it 2,009 times every morning.