Do You Ever Get That Feeling?

Okay, so most of you know that I had been talking to an old friend of mine that I had thought was going to be more than just a friend. In the end it turned out that he got really "busy" all of a sudden and didn't have the time to talk to me anymore and I was just left wondering... That is another story for another day though. Here's the thing. He lives in Missouri and was going to come visit in July and had purchased tickets for us to go see Coldplay. And yes, you can just guess...nothing...nada...zilch. Do I feel pathetic? Yes. Everyone has their own reasons why they think he didn't come, but again, that is another blog entirely. So the point is, it didn't happen.

Do you ever get that feeling like you were supposed to get to do something that you didn't get to? For instance, here, Coldplay. I was really excited about going. I was really looking forward to it. But it didn't happen. It's something close to regret but it's not regret entirely...what is it? Ugh! It's driving me nuts!

So I woke up tonight from this dream...I was going to the Coldplay concert with some friends and I had two tickets reserved but when I got there I found out they weren't reserved for me and had been sold to someone else. I was so disappointed (is that the feeling? just plain disappointment?) that I had to wait outside the stadium (or wherever) for my friends. Then after the concert, everyone comes out telling me how great it was and that I should have stuck around because they were letting people in for $1.50. They had tried to call me to tell me but I left my phone in the car and was too busy pouting that I didn't get to go. And I missed it...

(insert giant pouty/sad/mad face here...and I mean GIANT!)

So now I have this regretful/disappointed/I missed out on something truly great feeling that I can't get rid of. And I hate it. Hmmm....maybe this is HF trying to tell me something. Like if I don't stop missing someone who obviously doesn't miss me, I am going to miss out on something truly great...I'll let you know how that turns out...

But I really really really really wanted to go see Coldplay! Grrrrr.......